Jun 01 2018

On finding what you seek

Category: MiscellaneousIuliana @ 12:12

When I decided to move to Edinburgh, quite a few people were saddened. Although in Romania I lived in two cities in the last 17 years, I did manage to build some strong connections and some friends. Yes, in this world, that is said to have been wrecked from a social point of view because of technology and in spite of my introvert nature, I did manage to open up to some people that they have become my friends.

Those who were not saddened started making visitation plans. I was congratulated for my decision, for my strength to leave my mother country behind and chorus that I’ve heard quite a few times is the wish a lot of people have to “find what I seek”.

What if I told you that I am not seeking for anything in particular? It’s true, even in Romania, there was not much I was missing. It’s just that Earth is a big planet and I don’t want to die after I lived mostly in one place. Especially since my life has nothing that requires me to stay in one place. Children need stability, so they can develop routines and stable characters. Adults do not. Adults without roots and obligations should go ahead and see the world. And I do not mean  just travel. Move, go live in another country, adapt, grow. So I moved to this country because I could. And if after 5 years I still won’t have roots here, I will probably move somewhere else.

When I lived in Iasi there was an apricot tree in front of my window. I lived there for 7 years, I’ve seen it grow from my own height to 4-5 meters tall and we actually ate the apricots it produced. You know what happened to that tree? It grew up until it hit the electricity lines, and we had to shorten its branches, and its roots grew underground until they hit concrete. That is when the tree started to die. That tree had no choice. If it had, it would have left the city, and go to the forest outside it where it could have more depth to expand its roots. Sure, that tree grew there in that yard, it was his world. But the world is so much bigger.

We are humans, we can move, and technology has helped us reach the most far away corners of the world. Why stay rooted in the city you were born, getting just small glimpses of other cultures and societies? If you really want to grow as a person, you need change, you need to go out of your comfort zone, that is when you will discover new things about yourself that you never thought you had in you.

Also, when you stay in one place for too long you become the person that matches that environment, and no matter how many books you read, how much you travel, your parameters are … well, sort of fixed. You have your own routine, your own stuff that people actually associate you with. And doing something new, or changing something that you do not like about yourself does not seem necessary, because everybody accepts you like that anyway.  Moving to another place, can provide you with the opportunity to reinvent yourself. You can introduce yourself to the new people you meet as the person you want to be, the better version of you,  and then stick to the script until you become that person. After all, it takes just 30 days to form a habit.

What did I change about myself for now? I started meditating and started running in the morning. Not much, 5 minutes of mediation for now and about 20 minutes of running each morning does it. I will increase the periods after it becomes a habit. This was my third day.  Only 27 days to go.

Stay safe, stay happy!

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