Iuliana Cosmina

Short answer: yes.
Long answer: yyyyeeeeeessss.

People seem to be doubtful that I am introvert when they meet me. Not sure what they expect honestly. Maybe some TV shows like “The Big Bank Theory” have malformed the overall image of what an introvert is, maybe some famous people have declared themselves introverts without being one. I’m not sure what lead to this, but the fact that I am able to talk people, look them in the eyes from time to time, act confident in a group and what not, doesn’t make me less of an introvert.

I do enjoy the company of some people, I do enjoy group activities, it’s just that they tire me, and I need a lot of time on my own to recover. I enjoy doing most things on my own that other people seem to enjoy doing while having company. Also, I’ve never liked crowds or groups. Maybe I’m not in introvert, maybe my overall life experience made me feel uncomfortable in certain situations, I don’t know. But I can tell you there are some things that make me anxious and there are some situations when too many people, or people that I know being around me makes me enjoy the activity I’m trying to do less, if at all.

Let’s take going to the gym for example. As an adult that likes to cook and eat, and has two sedentary jobs, I am getting fat slowly and I am aware I need to go to the gym. But I hate it, I hate being in the same room with a lot of people I don’t know, I don’t like using any kind of gym equipment while other people are watching. I don’t know if it is because I feel vulnerable in those moments, or exposed during a struggle, or I just don’t like people … but I’ve never felt comfortable in a gym.

Until now.

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As I’ve mentioned previously, for my birthday I’ve been to a few Fringe shows. Ok, I’ve been to two shows, that was all. The Fringe festival is different this year. Because the pandemic is still very much a problem, not many venues were allowed to open so the Fringe is happening this year but in a very limited way.

The last time I was at Fringe, I’ve been there with colleagues and friends from my previous workplace, and I remember one of the shows was cringey as hell.  It was a woman comedian, and the jokes were mostly about her vagina and periods. The jokes were really, really bad and cringey and for the life of me I could not understand who the hell in that room was laughing and why. Women comedians going for gender specific jokes are the ultimate proof of lack of talent and creativity in my view, and I doubt that this opinion will ever change. It’s pretty similar to men comedians limiting themselves to bad dick jokes.

Ironically, the only comedian that disappointed me last night was a woman as well. The coincidence was that the show was taking place in the same venue as the last times. It seems they have a penchant for bad women comedians. The one last night had a collection of jokes about her vagina as well, it started with shoving garlic in it to cure a yeast infection and it ended with some period jokes. The whole 5 minutes of her show were a testament to an extreme lack of sexual and women’s health education. It was not funny, it was cringey. And still, people in that room were laughing. Why? Maybe they weren’t laughing at her jokes but at her failure of an attempt at comedy. Or maybe they were being supportive of her, because she was young and you know, maybe she has potential of being a good comedian in the future, so let’s not disenchant her, right?

This show was about comedians, copying jokes from each other. A male comedian had to do her bit and he did it better than she did. And when she had to do his bit, the only way she thought she could be funny is my inserting every 30 seconds a joke about him having a small dick. It was cringey, it was petty and most of all it was not funny.

Women comedians who do this, please stop. Your jokes are bad, and you should feel bad. I truly think a comedian regardless of gender can be funny without making jokes about their own sexual organs. Mostly, period jokes are not funny. Yeast infection jokes are not funny. The lack of sexual education and women health education are not funny. Maybe they could be, but when they are made fun of by an experienced comedian.

Stay safe, stay happy!

Here it is, two years to 40. If you would ask me when I was 20 about turning 40, I would have shivered and refused to think about it. Now that I am here, it’s not that bad.

This entry is being published after my birthday because, well, it was MY birthDAY. For a few years now I’ve been on vacation and spending it alone, without the pressure of throwing a party or ordering/baking a huge cake. I receive a few phone calls from dear friends, a few bouquets of flower are being delivered and that’s pretty much it.

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